Thursday, October 13, 2011

After Stroke Question

Most of you know my husband suffered a stroke back in August. I am thrilled to say that he is almost 100% after only 2 months. I am back to work and hopefully next week he will get the OK to go back. I won't go into any details of his stroke or his recovery for the past two months. I will say one thing though, his symptoms were not what are always posted for tell tale signs. If you aren't sure, just take them to the hospital.

With that said, I know a few of you have been through some hard times also with spouses and family members. So I have a question to ask. Once your spouse or family member was able to take care of themselves, did you feel let down? I spent two months, 24/7 with my husband. I am very thrilled that he is fine. And I was glad to get back to work although leaving my husband home alone with just the dogs cause me alot of concern since there would be no one to call 911 in case something happened. But even being back at work, I just feel.....well....not myself. I guess the best way to explain is....Christmas. All the hype, busy ness, buying, wrapping, festivals, events. Then Christmas morning after the presents are all opened....I just feel....let down. There's nothing left for me to do. I have no purpose. Well maybe not that bad. But I just don't feel like I'm doing enough or something. Almost like I'm depressed???? Even though I'm relieved at the outcome, I'm not really happy. Does that make sense? It is so hard to describe how I'm feeling. Did any of you ever have "strange" feelings after going through a particularly difficult time in your life? You don't have to go into anything specific....I just want to know that I'm not alone with my feelings.


Granny Annie said...

My spouse still needs my help and his one prayer seems to be that I stay healthy at least until he is back on his feet. I'm not sure how I'll feel when he is 100% again,I just pray that he will be 100% again and am so happy for Hut that he is making it over this hurdle with you at his side.

Bonnie said...

@ Granny Annie you were the one person I knew would understand what I was trying to say. I knew your husband was making some great progress, but I wasn't sure how much you were still involved in. I'm thinking maybe my feelings are really feeling of relief but I haven't realized that yet. Keeping you and Ron in my prayers.

Missy's Blog said...

Bonnie, you are not alone. I totally get what you are saying. I agree with you ... I too believe it's relief you are feeling and your body will "catch" up and realize it soon. Love you!